I did it today. I found my private zone in the city. I walked The High Line on this beautiful Sunday. I watched people. I watched the boats slide across the water, and I was alone. I was also lonely, but I needed to feel this emotion. I needed to be with myself in a state of authentic feelings. I found an empty wooden chaise, sat back and found my place. A girl was sitting next to me with her earphones, and she was in her world, and I knew that I could be in mine. At first, I watched the people as they walked past me and then, I let them go. I let them be in the background. I selected a song I have been listening to for the last couple of days, “Time Passages” by Al Stewart. I had my earphones in, my sunglasses on and I cried quietly, but I cried. I do not like for anyone to see me cry, but I could do it here because I had created my private space and no one noticed. At one point the girl got up and a lady a few years older than I am sat down. I think she witnessed my chest heaving up and down, but she let me have my space. That’s why I love this city. I know if I had needed help, anyone would have helped me, but I needed this. My space. When the woman got up she looked my way and warmly smiled at me. I didn’t smile back, but I am sure she could see that I was grateful that she had allowed me to be alone. I was crying for those time passages. “The years run too short and the days too fast. The things you lean on are the things that don’t last.” As I was lying back crying, I prayed and I meditated. Earlier in the day, a Buddhist monk approached me; he gave me a bracelet and said to me, “I love you” and “Namaste.” He prayed for peace for me. He may be part of a scam I’ve heard is going on, but I don’t care. I did not give him money. I feel like God spoke through him and it was what I needed today. Afterward, I went to a 12 Step meeting, and it was on Step 3: “Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood him.” This was a reminder that I must do this step daily. Let go and let God. Today, I was alone, and felt my God’s presence, and it’s the one thing I can lean on that will last during these time passages.